It's Really Hard

I knew this process of selling our home would be hard.  I knew it wouldn't be any fun...at all.  But I didn't realize just HOW hard it really would be.  I'm totally stressing out about it...so much so that I'm getting sick.  The stress of it all is wearing me down physically and I'm not dealing with it as well as I know I should.  I feel like everyday that passes and we don't hear ANYTHING is just another day closer to separation.  I am dreading the idea of our family being separated like none other!  I get emotional just thinking about it.  I know I'm being the biggest baby in the world but I really, Really, REALLY do not want to have to be here in Pueblo alone while Charlie starts work up in Denver.  My mom reminds me that at least we're not sending him off to war, or at least it will only be for a short time, but I'm still dreading it like the plague.  I know others have it way worse off than me, I get it.  But I still need to mourn, and feel sorry for myself for a while until I get the strength and courage to face it head on.  Right now I feel like there's a load of bricks weighing down on my chest and I can't breathe.  I know deep down that it will all work out, I know that!  And I know that we're following the guidance of the Spirit, which gives me comfort.  Right now, it's just hard and I'm not dealing with it very well.